Change.

8/2/19

Strength in weakness. 

Freedom in loss. 

Love in sadness. 

Why is it when you go through some of the most painful situations do you suddenly begin to see things clearly? It’s as though you have wiped a window clean, and you can now see out. You see that your past has brought you to who you are now, but you will never accept things as they have been. Your present is more bright, beautiful, full of wonder, raw emotion, and detail. You cherish the good days—the easy days. You cherish every laugh, every smile, and every hug. You feel the sad, and hard days to your core—but know they won’t stay that way. Your future now has become a mystery, but not one you’re afraid of like you used to be. It is something you’re excited, and curious about. You’re ready to turn the page, and open a new book all together. It comes with fear, but who says fear is a bad thing? We as humans, have always been those to like routine, and predictability. As babies we were engulfed in routine- bed time, feedings, naps, etc. So why would that change now? We like stability, comfort, and feeling like we know what to expect daily… but sometimes, a lot of the time— change, fear, and anxiety leads to something so much better. God has plans for

each of us, nothing we do will surprise Him. Our job is to listen, and to follow the path He has created for us so that we can be our happiest selves. 

Life is a messy, complicated, and amazing experience. The experiences we encounter daily, the people we meet, the people we become close too, the people we lose…they all shape us to be the person that we are meant to be. Pain is a very raw, gut wrenching emotion; but, with pain comes the appreciation for the good in life. It makes every single moment that provides us with happiness that much more vivid. The smile from a baby, the kisses from your children, a belly laugh with your friends, the feeling of a warm embrace, the fun of dancing to your favorite song, the feeling of a passionate kiss, the beauty of the sunlight dancing across the sky with pastel colors painting the clouds. You realize that the world is full of so many amazing, and beautiful people, places, feelings, and moments. You are so thankful to be alive. You are thankful for the bad times, that help you appreciate the good. I am at the point now where I feel as though blessings truly can come disguised as an ending. The many corny Pinterest quotes that talk in variation about “when one door closes, another opens” could not be more true. Fear of the future is gone, and fear for staying the same, or reverting back is there. A road of self discovery, improvement of self, working on strengthening relationships, becoming the best mother and Christian I have ever been…these are all my current goals. I am finally truly at peace, and I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be. This season of becoming is going to be phenomenal.